The Meaning of LIFE

After watching the film "Helen the baby fox", as I walked out of the cinema hall, I felt extremely heavy weight with my own steps. The phrase that one of the actor who talk to the little kid, who lost his baby fox: If it is not because of you, it may not even live for three days. But because you believed in it, and made it survived for three weeks. You have provided the little fox it fullest life."

Yes, the phrase "Fullest life" hit me hard on the ground. As a full grown adult, have I lived the fullest life? Or am I merely wasting my beautiful life on this planet? I do not hope nor depend on people to provide me that life. I look for it, and live with it.

As I retired willingly from my work, there were people who think that I have lost my mind. With income of few thousand dollars a month, and yet I decided to prematurely retired myself. But how many people out there really think about the life they would have, if they retired at the age of 60 or 62? 10 years more to live? 5? or worst 1! No one could guarantee. At the moment, where time is limited to you, won't you think you are silly to spend the whole life just working for others and to earn a living for 3 meals? At least, now I am what I am. I have the full power to control my own destiny. I am as free as a bird, and most of all, I am really enjoying my life.

Will you be happy when you exhale your last breath, and say to yourself: I have live my fullest. Do you??

得失何所求

人生在世,有时因身在俗世而,身不由已,因而随波逐流。事事视人家的意见而决定自已的立场。因而失去自已。悲乎。

有人终日四处劳碌,为三餐而忙之外,还多方寻求更多的钱。因为他们认为只要有钱,他们便拥有快乐。谁知他们日夜在外,忽略了家庭温情,因而使儿女缺乏教养,最终成了社会的垃圾。到时后悔莫及矣!

人的一生,到底是在追求什么呢?

正如一些在第三世界做义工的人,所感触到的一般,他们见证了那一群生活在水深火热的环境中,始终乐在心中,喜在面上!为何?皆为他们深知生活之道!

其实,如果我们回到生活的本质,除却额外的虚荣,生活是相当优游自在的呵!

When old friends meet

It was at the 20th anniversary Dinner, when all the old friends met. I had been with the organization for more than 15 years. There were thousands of people went passed me through this organization. That particular night, i.e. the 20th Anniversary Dinner Night; lots of these people came back to meet up with long lost friends.

I saw people neglecting the food but to go around tables and look for friends. People were cheering, screaming and hugging. Of course, lots of photo taking too. These are the happy faces. They share their past with their friends, exchanging contact number, etc.

Several young friends came up to me that night. We exchanged greetings. With a particular friend, I asked: Are you happy with your life now? She hesitated awhile and said: It could be better. I felt a bit relief with her answer. At least, she was not so unhappy with her life. They are lots of people these days, who are not unhappy with their life at all.

Come to think about this, I really wonder how many out there really like her, thinking seriously about one's own life??? There are people who lives like a piece of drift wood. They just follow the tide. Happiness to them is all but superficial.

Recently read a piece of article, regarding this issue. The author believed that you could be much more happier, if you give more than you gain from this world. But the concept of giving is not only limited to materialism. It also include spiritual giving; moral supporting.

May be we should move out of this materialistic world and re-examine our existence in this planet. Are we here to conquer, to manipulate, to impose, and to control other?

What if we do away with these constraints? Will we be happier?

I do not really know. But it is worth for us to think about it.

光哉吾顶

一时兴起,将头顶三千发丝剃光。杀时之间,周围的人,都给与各种义异的眼神。更有人竟问:到底是发生了什么事啦?为何将头给剃个精光。
夜深人静时,回想起来,可真得十分呐闷。只是将头剃光这么简单的一件事,为何别人总昰要想得那么复杂呢?
光头的好处可不少呵!一是除去顶上闷热的感觉。二是能减少上理发院的一笔开销。再来是不用再買什么染发剂及洗发露了。一举而三得,何乐而不为呢!
再者,也可以一改向来的型像,令人耳目一新。自己每次照镜,见到自已光头的样子,仿佛是一个新生的自已。似乎过去的一切,都随三千发丝坠逝。
其实,将头剃光,只是要完成自已的一椿心愿。自己曾经答应过自己:有朝一日,如果能早日退休,脱离苦海,自己将把头剃光,以感谢冥冥中给我的绝妙安排。如今如愿以偿,因而也以光头以示铭谢。
寒山有诗云:琴书须自随,禄位用何为。投輦从贤妇,巾车有孝儿。风吹曝麦地,水溢沃鱼池。常念鷦鹩乌,安身在一枝。
日子若真的过得像诗中的意境,人,可就活得似神仙似的!

2006年5月14日稿

What is Right (Truth) or Wrong? (Written in Chinese)

所谓真理


很多人一生始终都住在一个受人旨意的环境里。就像在远古时代,受着皇上的旨意而活。
头顶上,永远有一双不可侵犯的眼,虎视眈眈的监视着你。由于年纪轻,一切都任人摆布。
成长后,才明了世事不是一加一那么的简单。不同的时空,不同的人文,对同一件事情,却有超过一种的解读和处理的方法。对与错就没有绝对了!
可憾的是有一些人,特别是稍有权势之人,就仗着这点权势,将自已的一套似是而非的准则,强加于人。因而引发无数的纷争。世界从此便再也没有安宁。
错误与正确,是一种相对的比较,它绝对不是什么事实!可惜众人为了面子,为了维护自己的权势,不得不迫使另一方就范。哀哉!
人类的所谓文明,如果确实如此,那就最好不要!谁人不知,名与势不过是身外之物,毫无实质。所谓生不带来,死不带去呵。
真羡慕那些把名利放置一边而如意生活的人,这些人真的有福。


二零零六年五月九日稿

卫塞2006有感

踉踉跄跄的走过大半生,现在回首去看大半的哀伤,仅是自己当时放不下的执着。

现在回想起来,仅得苦笑一番。人,有时真是自已的奴隶。自已常用一条无形的绳紧紧地将自已绑扎成一团无法开解的绳束。

名利,始终是凡人的苦恼泉源。在现代都会生活中的人,还多了一样苦恼,那实‘人比人‘。甲某的家人,会比较乙某的家人；然后会与甲某说 ：看!人家有这有那,为何我们不能拥有?甲某听了,为了颜脸,只好身兼数职,拼其老命,就为了不被人家看扁自己的家人。结果嘛,极可能提早油尽灯枯,倒地不起,一命呜呼!

为的又是什么呢?那眼前虚浮的装饰。曾经看到有人清茶淡饭的过一生,却是怡然自乐。圆满的渡过一生。死而无憾。这才是没有虚渡此生哪!

云树高低迷古墟,问津何处觅长沮?渔郎行入深林处,轻叩柴扉问起居。或许曼殊大师的这首诗,正真写出年过半百的汉子的心境吧!

2006年5月3日稿

The Vesak Day (Poem In Chinese)












This Poem is published on 9th May 2006 Lianhe ZaoBao Wenyi Ban.

The translation (Roughly):

Fullness, really only belong to that Full Moon?
The eyes are filled with all sorts of happiness, sadness, parting and reunioning
All grievances fill up the ears
Who is the one who holds the Light?
Every night, the TV screen
Sweet talks
Virtual painted pictures flooding our sight
People are a flock of mindless souls
lingering
among the unreal truth
Where is the Truth
Among the beautifully printed text?
When there is no basis on truth or lies
The language of Advertisement
becomes another absolute truth
The silvery clear moon
is the target
the madmen specially looking for
The Light of Fullness
only written on
the grains of foreheads
of those ordinary people

My Life (Written in Chinese)
Those who would like to read the English version, kindly go to my other blog: My Poems

欣喜参半的日子


眨眼， 一生便火石般飞过去了。
要喊停，也无从喊起。跌跌撞撞的从各种悲喜中走来，回首，一切皆为烟云。
什么情义，什么生死； 还不是只存冷夜里，一怀挥之不去的幽情。
抱着路总是要走的心态，来到今日，前路只剩几许；就算风雨在大，自己也不过一笑置之。
回望四周的人，争功夺位， 到头来，狰狞獠牙，丑态百出。朋友没了，日子也开始难过了。 那又何必呢？

人 生于世，区区数十年；真的只为讨两口饭吃吗？只为汽车洋房而活吗？看看一般洋人，一有空便四处外游。增添人生情趣。七老八十的还四处结伴而行。看了，真羡煞人也。我们呢，到这个年龄时，早已精疲力尽，瘫在床上，无法行动自由。 悲也！今日的我，每夜都细算着每日的所作所为；以防自己继续践踏自己的生命。时日，到底是无多呵！

几度夕阳红

近日，夕照异常艳丽。霞色缤纷。
一时兴起，抓了相机就拍下拾几张照片。
定下心静观， 不觉心头一股哀伤幽然而起。
夕阳无限好， 只是近黄昏！不正是自己的写照吗？
多长的路， 都走到将尽了。
日子像枯叶似的片片凋零，无声无息。
眼前什么都有了，只是时间，时间却像沙漏， 点点滴滴的流失。
要做的事可多着哪！去摄影，去画画，去写作，去习禅，去。。。。有时，听友人说：十年后，我们什么什么的。自己心里却嘀咕着：我有这十年麽？？
正是这种心态，每每策划到一半时， 心里就迟疑下来，无法完事。
或许，或许抱着“过一日算一日“的态度， 会好受一点吧。
至少，可以每日挥活的更加精彩！失落感便肯定少一点。
速沉的夕阳，并不可怕。日落后，黑夜必定来临。只惋惜不能久留灿烂的霞色少许。

无题

雪白的心情
是一种明月清溪的观照
流云与投影
终究是一场虚虚实实的交替
花魂绮丽的梦
遂成
岁月里几许丝丝的蜜意

The Cruise

Personally, I do not like to let myself to be floating on the water. The main reason is I do not know how to swim, and have phobia with water.

This cruise trip happened really in a very strange way. One day in January, while window shopping at Woodlands Shopping Centre, two of us strolled pass a tour agency and saw the Star Cruise poster, we walked in to enquire some information of the cruise. As we walked out of that place, we already booked the trip! Until today, I still do not understand how it happened. Maybe, faithed to be on the vessel this period of time in my life!

Anyway, the trip came out quite enjoyable and present. The Star Virgo left the port in the evening, Friday. As the vessel sailed out, the sun starting to set.


The sky turned into a melting pot, inside it were lots of colour and rays.
It was my dream time, as I always wish to watch the sunset in the open sea when I was a child.

I stay at the top deck of the vessel and watch the sun set, as if I was watching a remarkable TV series. Every sec, every minute the appearance of the sky changes. There were reds, purples, blues, etc colours whirling above me. It's like a silent musician playing a beautiful tune in front of me. I was not the only person admiring the scene, there were others on the deck too.

As for the cabin, it is real small and cute. It equip with a painted fake window, as we were staying in a non-windowed cabin. Everything in the cabin is minute. With my orang-utan body moving around it, you would always hear me bum into something in the room most of the time.


The corridor on the open deck is breezy and nice. It is a nice spot for having an afternoon beer with a nice book in the hands for reading. The gigantic deep blue sea is wide open in front of you. Pressure is not present here, you could have all your time by yourself. If bored, go sing karaoke. There is a library on the vessel too. But, to me, the library is short of collections. There are spa, gym and loudges at 7 and 12 floor.

We watched three different shows within two days. The first was "The Kindom of Ku Fu", a dance and martial art mixed show by Chinese Martial Art Artists and other Chinese artists. Then, on the second day, we watched Singapore's own idols, Superstars Performance. Kelly, Jun Yang, Sin Hui and Wei Lian were performing in the show. After that, we show the topless dance show.

We went to the Casino after the show. And contributed another 100 dollars there!
The vessel was back to Singapore on Sunday. There ends my first experience being floating on the water for three solid days.

劫

佛家常说，人生多劫。年少时，不以为意。现年过半百，方知言之有物！劫，是一个观念，一个设想。但是，如果我们用它来衡量我们的一些人生际遇，倒也蛮有意思的。

劫， 在我来说，有好几种。多数人认为：人有情劫。不错，的确有‘情劫‘这码子事。但情劫不等于两性之劫！情也，涉及友情，亲情，爱情等。只要你以涉及，多少你一定会被波及。乐者， 自乐。败者，轻则唉声叹气；重者，意识消沉，甚至了以轻生！

此劫如此恐怖， 难道我们无法绕道而走吗？千百年来，古人早已作此想。只是，从他们的文字作品中，我们可以清楚看到；他们也是在苦苦挣扎， 但依旧无法脱离苦海。因而， 留下千古佳文， 供我们欣赏。

话说回来，人生在世，谁能无情？能无情者，已成飞禽走兽，非人也！因此，吾等只能劫覆一劫的活下去。奈何？

Bushido

I have been practicing karate-do for more than 40 years in Singapore. Personally I witnessed several great martial art artists grow and matured. They process the qualities of Masters. They do process great Bushido spirit and take it as part of their life.

They are heroes of themselves. They walk tall, and behave graciously.

Unfortunately, there are also many who claim to be ‘The Greatest’. They boost their status by stepping on somebody head. They do lots of self-advertising. But if we examine the facts, we will realize that most of them are frauds.

This makes me think of some fundamental issues here. One of them is Bushido spirit. Martial Art artists all know what this is. Most of us in this circle will be practicing it. There are several principles in Bushido: 1. Gi: the right decision, taken with equanimity, the right attitude, the truth. 2. Yu: bravery tinged with heroism. 3. Jin: universal love, benevolence toward mankind; compassion. 4. Rei: right action--a most essential quality, courtesy. 5. Makoto: utter sincerity; truthfulness. ó. Melyo: honor and glory. 7. Chugo: devotion, loyalty.

When I looked back to these principles, I really wonder those martial art artists do they really process these qualities?

A real great martial exponent always show his humble character; always patent in listen and coaching, always concerning, always attend matters with great passion and love.
But the strange thing is, I see lots of people who are martial artist themselves, back stepping others, bad mouth of others, or worse of all, slandering those he does not like. Are they qualified to be a martial art artist? Are they really understood the spirit and the core values of martial art?

Love

What is Love?
There often time people talk a lots about love. Do they really what's love? Lovers like to say: I love you. But do they really know what is the meaning in these words?

Few days ago, there was a piece of news about a little girl. She was missing from her own home in the afternoon. After three days of the news report, she was found dead under a flavor bridge. The prime suspect was her step father. This incident makes me re-think about what is love! If a human being can't even has a heart for another human being, I think, this person has no right to be standing among us.

There are lots of people in one hand promoting love, but in the other hand, they take away lives from the innocent people. This happens all the time in Planet Earth. Switch on your TV, view the news, you will realize what I have said is happening.

Once I watch a documentary film, it made me aware that there very few animals that would murder their own kind. Human Beings is one of these cruel creatures! And murder could take form in many faces, such as War, Religion, Race, and so on. When the blood flash red, the heart turns into ragging fury and madness.

Come to think about it, we humans are really bluffing ourselves all the time: How can we be better than those animals in the jungle?!

Following the Dream

Recently viewed a DVD entitled 'Following the Dream'. It is a Chinese cultural show performed by the disable. After watching the show, it gives me very great impact. Tears swell in my eyes, when I heard the wheelchaired singer sang "Zhang Sheng Xiang Qi" (When the applause started). I could feel these performers' great detemination and courage. They showed the world that they do not have the right to be pessimistic, they could not afford failure! They strike for perfection and grace. They believe in self-help, rather to depend help from other.

These performers, some of them are blind, crippled, semi-retarded, deaf, etc. But they live with dignity, pride and self confidence. Look back to our own surrounding, we are all born perfect, but there are many of us who lives like a sucker, who behave like an animal, who looks like a wolf wearing sheep skin. What is the matter with these people! If we compare these honourable disables with them, we really feel very shameful of these scumbags and garbages.

There are people who face hurdles in life, and will just turn around and do not face it. They set goals, but never reached. They make plans but never realised. Because they give up easily. They do not believe they could do it. They like to find short cuts. They want instant success. They must have forgotten a phase: NO PAIN, NO GAIN. At the end of the road, these people most properly will be pieces of drift wood, just flow through the stream of time and fade away without a trace!

I salute the performers in that DVD's cultural show. They given us strength to look forward when things are not to our desires. They demonstrated what will could make a person different from others. They are the real heroes in life!

Time

When I was young, time is nothing to me. I had waste lots of them for nothing. Youth is just like a splash of water. Suddenly, it vaporised, and vanished.

Today, youth is just like yesterday's event, it is so near and yet it is really far. Suddenly realise that time is ticking away, second by second. Very often hearing friends passing away one by one. My favourite actors gone, my favourite hangouts disappeared, my admired nation leader vanished. In the middle of the night, very often, I ask myself: When will be your turn?

Youngster do not realise this thing called 'Time' is a horrible thing. It just walk pass you and leave you no pain. Great leaders always say that we must live a meaningful life. How many of us, when we were having our last breath, would say to ourself: I really had my meaningful life in this world! Today, I see lots of young people addicted to games, drugs, and other trendy hobbies. Do they really think about meaning of life? Or their objectives in life? I could not answer on their behalf. But I do know, many time they are just letting time passing through their fingers and grap nothing for themselves. Sad? Maybe not. They may have lots of reasons to tell you they know what is good to themselves.

I just wonder, will these people have the same answer when they blow out their last breath, and look back on what they had done in the past?

For me, the clock's clicking is a daily threat. It keep on reminding me, time is running out of me. If I need to do something meaningful to myself, I better do it soon. Otherwise, it could be too late; and regret won't help.

有感

谢清 诗

春衫颓了秋寒，
清月照见发斑。
此生恩情难分，
流水飞花遗憾。