闲情一二

真的是很久很久没有如此闲情过了。近日为了应付考试夜夜难眠,只为了证明自己,人虽老,记忆未老。常常一读,就读到凌晨二三奌。

考试终於过去了。成织还算不丢人。心情也就得放轻松一些。今日无意乘电轨车到圣淘沙一行。一下车,成片的尉蓝扑面而来。蓝的是一片青天,更蓝的却是那一片淘白的海洋。一看到满眼的蓝,心中的所有烦忧,所有的不快,刹时释然。

地铁站怜近有一小店,店外一片沙滩,沙滩上插着一支支巨大白阳伞,傘下有躺椅。一眼看去,此情此景,竟能在加坡这种闹市寻得,可不称奇?當下立刻小店主人买了一杯冰冷的啤酒,找一张置放在椰树下的躺椅,躺下。爽呯,人生最大的享受便是如此与大自然相拥!喝一口冰凉的酒,闭目聆听,顶上椰风习习,远处涛声不绝,偶而一两隻无名小鸟,随风窜过,添增一份惊喜!

一个炎炎的下午,遂随流云与和风逸然而去。畄下,几许的淡淡情怀,让我细嚼。

稳忧

人最怕有稳忧,因为一有此物,便终日给它痴缠,心神恍佛,六神无主；生不如死矣!

但是要想没有此物,却又非常困难。因为人人都有私心,都有偏见。做起事来,无论如何也会多少开罪一些持有异议的人。如此一来,便不得不有稳忧。处处得提防人家的暗箭或背后飞来的锐刀。要能安眠又谈何容易呢?

另有一种情况:患上某种病痛时,医生在治疗时,告诉你它是有可能复发的!这就像在你脑中放置一枚计时炸弹,你日防夜防,就不知道它要不要引爆,或者是何时要引爆!那种心头五味真是别人难以理解的。烦,只是烦在自己的心头。

人生,便是如此的无奈。而岁月依旧如流水般淌去,喜也一生,悲也一生。

夕阳之旅

人过六十,大多意态躏跚,心如槁木。主要原因是人生目标失落,身体情况日衰；因而身心皆疲。要不日覆一日的枯坐,便是终日无所事事。眼看这些人,实在是白耗生命。

迴望洋老翁,依然春风满靣,拉着老伴的手,二心走天涯。真羡煞多少人!有时情不自禁的走上前去问他们的年龄,有人竟回答:吾八十多岁矣!天呵,实在不能想像东方人也能像他们一样,做逍遥游。当然,如果你没有经济后盾,要走都难!

健康也是另一环结。假设你两眼昏花,四肢乏力；把你置身香格里拉,恐怕你也看之无色,食之无味,走之无路矣。

总之,要老来潇洒,除了袋中有银,还要身体硬朗.

只是如果终身和消费税,生活指数,以及通货膨胀率肉膊,那里还有剩余留做晚年享受?别忘了还有医药费像一隻凶残的猛兽,伏在你的前头呢!

The fight for Freedom

This week another ugly and cruel political game is happening in Burma, the country of Buddhas and Pagodas. From the news, we saw monks taking up protest on behalf of the people that disagreed with the military army control government. They were not protesting for their religion, but for the rights of the people in Burma.

Everyone knows the present ruling government of Burma is not elected by the people; in fact, they robbed the power from the people there and rule them as they wish.

As a human being here, I personally feel that by using guns and bullets to suppress the people’s will is the most uncivilized controlling method. Especially, putting bullets in the praying hands of the monks. I condemn this act! The whole world should condemn such uncivilized act too!

Damn the ugly and barbarian politicians!

好一盘清冷的秋月

清风不来

黑夜蹑足而临

灯饰哗然而起

去年人今年重来时

是否一样的心境?

发白而落

记忆在额纹里回荡

渐走渐模糊的臉

令人倍咸稀嘘

回转是不可能的事

僅有年少清美的记忆

醉饮今宵七彩缤纷的中秋夜

六十年的路

舖尽崎岖

行过千种甜酸苦辣

今夜

仰视

那一盘清冷的秋月

举杯饮尽

剩余的

生死与哀乐

明朝的日子

是否阳光普照

谁可相告?

（二零零七年九月十日初稿）

Forked Tongue

In this world, many people afraid or hate snakes. This is because they have forked tongue, and look evil. But people do not know, snakes could be useful in their own nature, as to balance the ecological environment in the wild.

But if a person has forked tongue, then this is real devilish. Many times in the records of history, we see betrayal and traitor. They sold their friends away, they sold their country away. Most of the time, it is only for one purpose: To get his own benefit. History has repeated this scenario many times. Who knows, it may even happening at the moment, next to you!

The common characteristic of this type of person: Usually will provide sweet talks in front of you; try to gain your confidence, and suck your benefit away. This type of forked tongue personal, still have some conscience in their mind. The other type could be worse, gain your confidence and sell your information to opposite part or enemies. The other characteristic is total declaration of innocence. This people would come to you and declare they are innocent and did nothing about what is wrong; they would declare they have no part on doing anything in the accused situation. This is something like a drunken person, when caught, will immediately declare: I am not drunk! This is the same psychological reaction on forked tongue person.

*Sigh* When one is going to behave like this, I believe he has lost his dignity, his pride, his principles of life. He has sold his soul to the devils. Right?

Life is uncertain

Recently, my 19 year old son suddenly fall ill, and got hospitalized for almost 2 weeks. He was diagnosed for lung infection, stomach ulcer bleeding and bone infection. All of these resulted from army training.

Lying on his bed, I witnessed a young life suddenly weakened within 2 to 3 days, and he was gasping for air for few days in the bed. At that time, I wish I could take over his suffering from him at any price. Luckily, the specialist doctors were at present, and effectively identified all the bacteria in his infected body. Right drugs were used, and they have successfully brought him back to the right track of recovery.

I have analysed the situation for him: partially he has not taken good care of his physical fitness and conditions. If he had done so, he could be eased from these sufferings. I believed he had taken this lesson in the bitter way. He started to monitor his heart rate and body temperature daily. And also aware of his intake of food and water quantity.

His told his friends that it was a horrible experience in his life. He would not like to have it again in the future.

Life is always very unpredictable. When disease strikes, and our body does not have enough resistance, there goes our precious life! I always believe by doing regular exercise and invest on our condition of health, could keep us out of lots of unnecessary sufferings.

Alas! He has finally on the route of full recovery. I am free of worrying him then.

太阳花

看到太阳花（向日葵）,一定会情不自禁的想起梵高。看到那花灿开的模样,又会想到一般阳光型的少年。总而言之,太阳花给人的印象,大多数都是积极及正靣的。虽然它的花期不长,但畄给人的印象却是恒久的。如果做为一个人,亦能和太阳花一般,无论是生存在世间的时日,是长是短；只要他能留下一个令人回味无穷的记忆,也可算是不枉此生之行矣。僅以此诗为勉。

始终是

如此一张畅开迎人的臉

朝着晨光

何着没有黑暗的日子

生活已不再是

能用金钱衡量的岁月

欢乐像黄金一般的

舗在你宽裕的胸膛

乌鸦与黑夜无法在你面前

立足。暗流没有去处

你以挺直的腰

傲視周遭的诽言恶语

风依旧冷冷的吹

世界还是没有停止运转

你始终如一

笔直的竖立在

一个黑白难分,正邪莫辦的

时空里,

笑看人生

The Snake People Sometimes, ancient Chinese wisdom is really very fascinating. Look at the zodiac signs, there are the pig, snake, dog, etc.

Come to think about it, in some cases, it is related to people's character. Take myself for example, I am under the zodiac sign of Pig. For many years, whether in my working life or leisure activities, I have done lots of 'Pig' jobs. That is, silly and stupid works. Works that sacrificing your own time, own expenses, own brain juice and most importantly, your own youth; and get back all the back stepping, insults and humiliations. It is just as stupid as a Pig!

On the other hand, there are lots of Snake people around us too! These people dress like decent fellows, with tie on, shinning shoes and mounted with a sweet forked tongue. For motive only known to himself, he would praise you better than his own God, polish your shoes as bright as possible and tell you he would be your servant to lick your toes; he just do these for one purpose: To get what he wants! When things developed in the way that not to his desire, these people would flip his face, as if gotten the secret trade from SiChuan: Bian Lian (Face Changing Trick). Immediately, they will coil into its real form: An ugly serpent! Then, started to bite you with no good reason; tarnish you with all the harmful words, abolish all your credits, load you with all the faults, and shoot you down with no mercy; then go to the place of worship and repent! These are the typical characters of Snake People. Friends, have you met people similar to this kind. If not, you are a lucky person, and try not to meet up with one. They only could make your life full of anger. Because these people like to play God in front of the public!

Ah! By few more days, the year of Pig will be arriving. Hopefully, people like me, the Pig people would have a better year ahead.

Please do not look down to Pig people; the Cantonese has a saying: Pretend yourself as a Pig, and you could trap and eat up a tiger slowly. All creatures big or small, they do have their mighty side; only ignorant people do not recognize it.

猪年有感

再过数日,就是猪大哥的年了。匆匆岁月,一榥竟是数十年逝去,实在感到人生苦短。加上近日多人无缘无故地悴死,更加令人觉得人命无常。

迴首过去的岁月,甜酸苦棘皆有。悲喜离合更是家常。或许是这一些际遇,令人感到莫明的孤寂。将一切拥有的,視为短暂,一切失去是一场无法完场的因缘。处世待人,皆淡然处之。有时真能品味到诗人周梦蝶的‘火中取雪‘的心态。

报章上看到时有超过百岁的人,依然活得怡然。而我们一般城市人,能过七十已是古来稀矣。自已今年已达六十矣,能活多久,己不是自已能控制机制。想到下一个猪年,自己已是个垂垂老者矣。遂买了一个猪摆饰回来,放在家中显眼处,时时用它来提醒自己:时日无多,好加珍惜!

春花再美,也有凋零时节。蝴蝶再艳,犹得褪翅成泥。更何况人呢?悲,不是悲时日难畄；悲自己一生没把时日好好利用,活得更有意义和价值!匆匆一生,竟把大半生用做感情的斗兽场。实在是怡笑四方!惭愧!

若有来世,吾必勿做此蒙眼愚汉矣!

山雨欲来风满楼

人生一世,不可能风平浪静,安安稳稳的过一生。风风雨雨,离离合合,再所难免。只是,在风雨将来临之时,以及雨大风狂之际,自已要如果立直背脊面对一切，才算的上是个大丈夫.

最近,因发生了一些事件,由这些事件的发展,令我对一个相识甚久的友人的处世待人之道,不敢苟同!此友人在平日安逸之时,一派大将之风.为人能言善道.谁又会料到,事情一发生壮况时,他竟然处身事外,袖手旁观;对平时为他做牛做马的一般草民,置之不理.一切曾经许下的承诺,像风中柳絮,杀时飞得无影无踪.世代炎良,人心难测呵!可怜那群一向相信他,且为他卖命工作的人,到头来尽是两袖清空,还得承受旁人无谓讥讽.有时要做好人,也不是件易事呵!

回想起来,现时这个社会能守住自已原则做人的,真有儿人?哀哉!

Solitary

Sometimes to be alone is not a bad thing at all. At least, you do not get disturbances from people; and could concentrate on whatever you are doing.

Hiding from the madding crowds can make one thinks better and see better too.

Human is very funny creature. No matter what sorts of education one receives; from what religions or from which races; there are people who would look upon name and frame as the most important things in their life. With this preoccupied concept in their minds, they would do lots of things that could damage others and finally achieved what they wanted for. These people would not tolerate loneliness. They must have the crowd to entertain them.

Can't image those sages or saints or great philosophers, if they have this sort of concept in mind; would they achieve those great thinkings or thoughts? Alias, luckily they are not!

What is happiness?

Happiness is having time to do your own things; to have opportunities to share your joy with friends.

Happiness is to enjoying life at any ocassions.

Happiness is to have beautiful evening at the seaside, listen to the breeze and enjoy sunset.

Happiness is going home and have good dinner with family.

Happiness is to treat all the upsets as jokes.

Happiness is to enjoy every smiling face around you all the day.

Happiness is to ignite more happy face surrounding you.

Happiness is................

圆梦之行

当我一开始向朋友们说要去报读大学课程时,有人表示很不以为然。都七老八十的人了,还读什么书呢!这是他们一般的想法。我一奌也不怪他们,因为去深造,不单费时费力,更重要的是费钱!想到这笔庞大的经费,多人都会止步!读了学位出来又有何用?另一帮人如是说。总而言之,我这个决定惹来不少白眼和冷笑。

只是众人不知,我只是想要去圆我儿时的梦!小时候因为家贫无法报读大学,连高中也得以读夜校方式来完。之后,入社会工作,因学历关系而屡次不受重用。深切感到学历乃‘成功之母‘也。无奈岁月不畄人,也没有再回头的百年身,僅能以风烛之年,一圆孩提的梦。谁人又知悉吾心呢?

花虽无百日红,人虽无千年少；但心里的梦,却多年不老,终夜梦回苦缠。一日不圆梦,夜夜梦相缠。唉,罢了罢了；还是下定决心苦读一香,至少来日还能含笑而终呢!

The Silent Group

Today, I went into one of the forums, and read in one of the contributions. It said that the writer discovered one of her colleagues, was a participant in the PSS Female Category. The writer showed her surprise, but acknowledge her colleague was brave and great.

In fact, people around us may be great; but they choose not to mention about themselves. As Chinese proverb says: Sitting Tigers and crouching dragons(Wo Hu Cang Long). We would only know them when they are reported in the press, or become the limelight of the media. This is why most of the educators believe that everybody has his talent. It is only depend on the particular person, would he want to explore his talent to the fullest or not.

When I was young, I witnessed a fight. The fight happened in the late 60s on the street. One of the opponents was wearing a pair of spectacles, look very scholar, and small in build. But to my surprise, in less than 2 minutes, his opponent run away with a broken nose. His opponent was very much bigger than him. Both fought with bare hands. Later, from my neighbours I understood that this little young man was practicing Chinese Kungfu for sometimes, and only his close friends know about it. He used it when he was bullied.

Later in my life, I also notice many rich persons, who keep themselves in very low key. But when come to contributions to charity, they will give generously; and always refused to use their names. In the contrary, there are lots of big mouths in the society that only know how to talk but no action or contribution.

Look at the volunteer social workers, they have done good deeds for the needed. But they do not boast themselves, nor to claim credits. I salute these people!

牛蛙

牛蛙

据说这世界上,有一种蛙,叫做牛蛙的。这种蛙,一遇到威胁时,便会将自已鼓起来,它可以将自已鼓到比自己大一倍的体积来吓唬敌人。但如果敌人知道它的底细,往往一脚就将它踩死!

人世间,何尝没有这种性格的人呢?人之所以自大,主要是困为自己有自卑感。自己对自己没有信心,只好自吹自擂,哗然取众。让不知底细的人,信以为真,瞒天过海。但是,这类人,往往只能骗人一时,但无法骗人一世。有朝一口,他的西洋镜被世人拆穿,则无脸见江东父老矣。到时,不知他的颜臉要埋在那一个粪坑!

唉哉!看到这种牛蛙式的人,不知是要同情他的愚昧,还是厌悪他那种虚伪的造作!

Peanut Syndrome

Remember there was a leader in South East Asia who describe Singapore as a little red dot?

Well, in life, there are many little red dots too. But if the red dots are really hot and spicy, then they make life much more challenging. If they are spicy, then life would be much more interesting. Isn't it?

The problem is: There are people who are really dwarf (In terms of physically or mentally), and yet they behave as if they are Alexandra the Great!

These people could easily be identified. They have common characters: Self boosting, like to grab limelight to himself, very impressive speech, etc. But if you examine him carefully, you will easily noticed there are potholes that are full of lies ( White or Black).

I have seen one particular creature around me. The creature like to act boss, talk boss and dress like boss. But when come to the actual situation, the creature would direct people to do it work or duties, then claim credit. When some real big shots around, he wag his tail like a hound dog. Coming to money matters, he would shy away, far far away. Familiar?

I believe you may have some creatures like this around you too. Just do not be alarm, they are like flies; give them a big slap, and they will be crushed.

I describe this sort of behaviour: the peanut syndrome!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

Today is Singapore's 41 birthday.
As a born Singaporean, I wish her a very very Happy Birthday.
As a Singaporean, very often I am very proud as Singaporean. Since young, I understand that my parents were migrants from China; but I always tell my foreign friends, especially the taiwanese and Chinese from Main Land, that I am a Singaporean. Some of them seems do not understand my claim, and asked me: Why not Chinese? (In Mandarin, means Zhong Guo Ren)

I told them, no doubt I am yellow skin, and I speak good Mandarin and write well with Chinese; but my motherland is Singapore, not China! I do admire China's greatness and its wealthy cultures.

And I could not stand people humiliating Singapore in front of me.
As Indonesian leader once said: Singapore is only a small red dot.
But to me, the red dot is like chilli padi, it is hot and spicy. Try to swallow it, you will get your throat sore for days, or even damage your sound track!

Viva, Singapore!

The Meaning of LIFE

After watching the film "Helen the baby fox", as I walked out of the cinema hall, I felt extremely heavy weight with my own steps. The phrase that one of the actor who talk to the little kid, who lost his baby fox: If it is not because of you, it may not even live for three days. But because you believed in it, and made it survived for three weeks. You have provided the little fox it fullest life."

Yes, the phrase "Fullest life" hit me hard on the ground. As a full grown adult, have I lived the fullest life? Or am I merely wasting my beautiful life on this planet? I do not hope nor depend on people to provide me that life. I look for it, and live with it.

As I retired willingly from my work, there were people who think that I have lost my mind. With income of few thousand dollars a month, and yet I decided to prematurely retired myself. But how many people out there really think about the life they would have, if they retired at the age of 60 or 62? 10 years more to live? 5? or worst 1! No one could guarantee. At the moment, where time is limited to you, won't you think you are silly to spend the whole life just working for others and to earn a living for 3 meals? At least, now I am what I am. I have the full power to control my own destiny. I am as free as a bird, and most of all, I am really enjoying my life.

Will you be happy when you exhale your last breath, and say to yourself: I have live my fullest. Do you??

得失何所求

人生在世,有时因身在俗世而,身不由已,因而随波逐流。事事视人家的意见而决定自已的立场。因而失去自已。悲乎。

有人终日四处劳碌,为三餐而忙之外,还多方寻求更多的钱。因为他们认为只要有钱,他们便拥有快乐。谁知他们日夜在外,忽略了家庭温情,因而使儿女缺乏教养,最终成了社会的垃圾。到时后悔莫及矣!

人的一生,到底是在追求什么呢?

正如一些在第三世界做义工的人,所感触到的一般,他们见证了那一群生活在水深火热的环境中,始终乐在心中,喜在面上!为何?皆为他们深知生活之道!

其实,如果我们回到生活的本质,除却额外的虚荣,生活是相当优游自在的呵!

When old friends meet

It was at the 20th anniversary Dinner, when all the old friends met. I had been with the organization for more than 15 years. There were thousands of people went passed me through this organization. That particular night, i.e. the 20th Anniversary Dinner Night; lots of these people came back to meet up with long lost friends.

I saw people neglecting the food but to go around tables and look for friends. People were cheering, screaming and hugging. Of course, lots of photo taking too. These are the happy faces. They share their past with their friends, exchanging contact number, etc.

Several young friends came up to me that night. We exchanged greetings. With a particular friend, I asked: Are you happy with your life now? She hesitated awhile and said: It could be better. I felt a bit relief with her answer. At least, she was not so unhappy with her life. They are lots of people these days, who are not unhappy with their life at all.

Come to think about this, I really wonder how many out there really like her, thinking seriously about one's own life??? There are people who lives like a piece of drift wood. They just follow the tide. Happiness to them is all but superficial.

Recently read a piece of article, regarding this issue. The author believed that you could be much more happier, if you give more than you gain from this world. But the concept of giving is not only limited to materialism. It also include spiritual giving; moral supporting.

May be we should move out of this materialistic world and re-examine our existence in this planet. Are we here to conquer, to manipulate, to impose, and to control other?

What if we do away with these constraints? Will we be happier?

I do not really know. But it is worth for us to think about it.

光哉吾顶

一时兴起,将头顶三千发丝剃光。杀时之间,周围的人,都给与各种义异的眼神。更有人竟问:到底是发生了什么事啦?为何将头给剃个精光。
夜深人静时,回想起来,可真得十分呐闷。只是将头剃光这么简单的一件事,为何别人总昰要想得那么复杂呢?
光头的好处可不少呵!一是除去顶上闷热的感觉。二是能减少上理发院的一笔开销。再来是不用再買什么染发剂及洗发露了。一举而三得,何乐而不为呢!
再者,也可以一改向来的型像,令人耳目一新。自己每次照镜,见到自已光头的样子,仿佛是一个新生的自已。似乎过去的一切,都随三千发丝坠逝。
其实,将头剃光,只是要完成自已的一椿心愿。自己曾经答应过自己:有朝一日,如果能早日退休,脱离苦海,自己将把头剃光,以感谢冥冥中给我的绝妙安排。如今如愿以偿,因而也以光头以示铭谢。
寒山有诗云:琴书须自随,禄位用何为。投輦从贤妇,巾车有孝儿。风吹曝麦地,水溢沃鱼池。常念鷦鹩乌,安身在一枝。
日子若真的过得像诗中的意境,人,可就活得似神仙似的!

2006年5月14日稿

What is Right (Truth) or Wrong? (Written in Chinese)

所谓真理


很多人一生始终都住在一个受人旨意的环境里。就像在远古时代,受着皇上的旨意而活。
头顶上,永远有一双不可侵犯的眼,虎视眈眈的监视着你。由于年纪轻,一切都任人摆布。
成长后,才明了世事不是一加一那么的简单。不同的时空,不同的人文,对同一件事情,却有超过一种的解读和处理的方法。对与错就没有绝对了!
可憾的是有一些人,特别是稍有权势之人,就仗着这点权势,将自已的一套似是而非的准则,强加于人。因而引发无数的纷争。世界从此便再也没有安宁。
错误与正确,是一种相对的比较,它绝对不是什么事实!可惜众人为了面子,为了维护自己的权势,不得不迫使另一方就范。哀哉!
人类的所谓文明,如果确实如此,那就最好不要!谁人不知,名与势不过是身外之物,毫无实质。所谓生不带来,死不带去呵。
真羡慕那些把名利放置一边而如意生活的人,这些人真的有福。


二零零六年五月九日稿

卫塞2006有感

踉踉跄跄的走过大半生,现在回首去看大半的哀伤,仅是自己当时放不下的执着。

现在回想起来,仅得苦笑一番。人,有时真是自已的奴隶。自已常用一条无形的绳紧紧地将自已绑扎成一团无法开解的绳束。

名利,始终是凡人的苦恼泉源。在现代都会生活中的人,还多了一样苦恼,那实‘人比人‘。甲某的家人,会比较乙某的家人；然后会与甲某说 ：看!人家有这有那,为何我们不能拥有?甲某听了,为了颜脸,只好身兼数职,拼其老命,就为了不被人家看扁自己的家人。结果嘛,极可能提早油尽灯枯,倒地不起,一命呜呼!

为的又是什么呢?那眼前虚浮的装饰。曾经看到有人清茶淡饭的过一生,却是怡然自乐。圆满的渡过一生。死而无憾。这才是没有虚渡此生哪!

云树高低迷古墟,问津何处觅长沮?渔郎行入深林处,轻叩柴扉问起居。或许曼殊大师的这首诗,正真写出年过半百的汉子的心境吧!

2006年5月3日稿

The Vesak Day (Poem In Chinese)












This Poem is published on 9th May 2006 Lianhe ZaoBao Wenyi Ban.

The translation (Roughly):

Fullness, really only belong to that Full Moon?
The eyes are filled with all sorts of happiness, sadness, parting and reunioning
All grievances fill up the ears
Who is the one who holds the Light?
Every night, the TV screen
Sweet talks
Virtual painted pictures flooding our sight
People are a flock of mindless souls
lingering
among the unreal truth
Where is the Truth
Among the beautifully printed text?
When there is no basis on truth or lies
The language of Advertisement
becomes another absolute truth
The silvery clear moon
is the target
the madmen specially looking for
The Light of Fullness
only written on
the grains of foreheads
of those ordinary people

My Life (Written in Chinese)
Those who would like to read the English version, kindly go to my other blog: My Poems

欣喜参半的日子


眨眼， 一生便火石般飞过去了。
要喊停，也无从喊起。跌跌撞撞的从各种悲喜中走来，回首，一切皆为烟云。
什么情义，什么生死； 还不是只存冷夜里，一怀挥之不去的幽情。
抱着路总是要走的心态，来到今日，前路只剩几许；就算风雨在大，自己也不过一笑置之。
回望四周的人，争功夺位， 到头来，狰狞獠牙，丑态百出。朋友没了，日子也开始难过了。 那又何必呢？

人 生于世，区区数十年；真的只为讨两口饭吃吗？只为汽车洋房而活吗？看看一般洋人，一有空便四处外游。增添人生情趣。七老八十的还四处结伴而行。看了，真羡煞人也。我们呢，到这个年龄时，早已精疲力尽，瘫在床上，无法行动自由。 悲也！今日的我，每夜都细算着每日的所作所为；以防自己继续践踏自己的生命。时日，到底是无多呵！

几度夕阳红

近日，夕照异常艳丽。霞色缤纷。
一时兴起，抓了相机就拍下拾几张照片。
定下心静观， 不觉心头一股哀伤幽然而起。
夕阳无限好， 只是近黄昏！不正是自己的写照吗？
多长的路， 都走到将尽了。
日子像枯叶似的片片凋零，无声无息。
眼前什么都有了，只是时间，时间却像沙漏， 点点滴滴的流失。
要做的事可多着哪！去摄影，去画画，去写作，去习禅，去。。。。有时，听友人说：十年后，我们什么什么的。自己心里却嘀咕着：我有这十年麽？？
正是这种心态，每每策划到一半时， 心里就迟疑下来，无法完事。
或许，或许抱着“过一日算一日“的态度， 会好受一点吧。
至少，可以每日挥活的更加精彩！失落感便肯定少一点。
速沉的夕阳，并不可怕。日落后，黑夜必定来临。只惋惜不能久留灿烂的霞色少许。

无题

雪白的心情
是一种明月清溪的观照
流云与投影
终究是一场虚虚实实的交替
花魂绮丽的梦
遂成
岁月里几许丝丝的蜜意

The Cruise

Personally, I do not like to let myself to be floating on the water. The main reason is I do not know how to swim, and have phobia with water.

This cruise trip happened really in a very strange way. One day in January, while window shopping at Woodlands Shopping Centre, two of us strolled pass a tour agency and saw the Star Cruise poster, we walked in to enquire some information of the cruise. As we walked out of that place, we already booked the trip! Until today, I still do not understand how it happened. Maybe, faithed to be on the vessel this period of time in my life!

Anyway, the trip came out quite enjoyable and present. The Star Virgo left the port in the evening, Friday. As the vessel sailed out, the sun starting to set.


The sky turned into a melting pot, inside it were lots of colour and rays.
It was my dream time, as I always wish to watch the sunset in the open sea when I was a child.

I stay at the top deck of the vessel and watch the sun set, as if I was watching a remarkable TV series. Every sec, every minute the appearance of the sky changes. There were reds, purples, blues, etc colours whirling above me. It's like a silent musician playing a beautiful tune in front of me. I was not the only person admiring the scene, there were others on the deck too.

As for the cabin, it is real small and cute. It equip with a painted fake window, as we were staying in a non-windowed cabin. Everything in the cabin is minute. With my orang-utan body moving around it, you would always hear me bum into something in the room most of the time.


The corridor on the open deck is breezy and nice. It is a nice spot for having an afternoon beer with a nice book in the hands for reading. The gigantic deep blue sea is wide open in front of you. Pressure is not present here, you could have all your time by yourself. If bored, go sing karaoke. There is a library on the vessel too. But, to me, the library is short of collections. There are spa, gym and loudges at 7 and 12 floor.

We watched three different shows within two days. The first was "The Kindom of Ku Fu", a dance and martial art mixed show by Chinese Martial Art Artists and other Chinese artists. Then, on the second day, we watched Singapore's own idols, Superstars Performance. Kelly, Jun Yang, Sin Hui and Wei Lian were performing in the show. After that, we show the topless dance show.

We went to the Casino after the show. And contributed another 100 dollars there!
The vessel was back to Singapore on Sunday. There ends my first experience being floating on the water for three solid days.

劫

佛家常说，人生多劫。年少时，不以为意。现年过半百，方知言之有物！劫，是一个观念，一个设想。但是，如果我们用它来衡量我们的一些人生际遇，倒也蛮有意思的。

劫， 在我来说，有好几种。多数人认为：人有情劫。不错，的确有‘情劫‘这码子事。但情劫不等于两性之劫！情也，涉及友情，亲情，爱情等。只要你以涉及，多少你一定会被波及。乐者， 自乐。败者，轻则唉声叹气；重者，意识消沉，甚至了以轻生！

此劫如此恐怖， 难道我们无法绕道而走吗？千百年来，古人早已作此想。只是，从他们的文字作品中，我们可以清楚看到；他们也是在苦苦挣扎， 但依旧无法脱离苦海。因而， 留下千古佳文， 供我们欣赏。

话说回来，人生在世，谁能无情？能无情者，已成飞禽走兽，非人也！因此，吾等只能劫覆一劫的活下去。奈何？

Bushido

I have been practicing karate-do for more than 40 years in Singapore. Personally I witnessed several great martial art artists grow and matured. They process the qualities of Masters. They do process great Bushido spirit and take it as part of their life.

They are heroes of themselves. They walk tall, and behave graciously.

Unfortunately, there are also many who claim to be ‘The Greatest’. They boost their status by stepping on somebody head. They do lots of self-advertising. But if we examine the facts, we will realize that most of them are frauds.

This makes me think of some fundamental issues here. One of them is Bushido spirit. Martial Art artists all know what this is. Most of us in this circle will be practicing it. There are several principles in Bushido: 1. Gi: the right decision, taken with equanimity, the right attitude, the truth. 2. Yu: bravery tinged with heroism. 3. Jin: universal love, benevolence toward mankind; compassion. 4. Rei: right action--a most essential quality, courtesy. 5. Makoto: utter sincerity; truthfulness. ó. Melyo: honor and glory. 7. Chugo: devotion, loyalty.

When I looked back to these principles, I really wonder those martial art artists do they really process these qualities?

A real great martial exponent always show his humble character; always patent in listen and coaching, always concerning, always attend matters with great passion and love.
But the strange thing is, I see lots of people who are martial artist themselves, back stepping others, bad mouth of others, or worse of all, slandering those he does not like. Are they qualified to be a martial art artist? Are they really understood the spirit and the core values of martial art?

Love

What is Love?
There often time people talk a lots about love. Do they really what's love? Lovers like to say: I love you. But do they really know what is the meaning in these words?

Few days ago, there was a piece of news about a little girl. She was missing from her own home in the afternoon. After three days of the news report, she was found dead under a flavor bridge. The prime suspect was her step father. This incident makes me re-think about what is love! If a human being can't even has a heart for another human being, I think, this person has no right to be standing among us.

There are lots of people in one hand promoting love, but in the other hand, they take away lives from the innocent people. This happens all the time in Planet Earth. Switch on your TV, view the news, you will realize what I have said is happening.

Once I watch a documentary film, it made me aware that there very few animals that would murder their own kind. Human Beings is one of these cruel creatures! And murder could take form in many faces, such as War, Religion, Race, and so on. When the blood flash red, the heart turns into ragging fury and madness.

Come to think about it, we humans are really bluffing ourselves all the time: How can we be better than those animals in the jungle?!

Following the Dream

Recently viewed a DVD entitled 'Following the Dream'. It is a Chinese cultural show performed by the disable. After watching the show, it gives me very great impact. Tears swell in my eyes, when I heard the wheelchaired singer sang "Zhang Sheng Xiang Qi" (When the applause started). I could feel these performers' great detemination and courage. They showed the world that they do not have the right to be pessimistic, they could not afford failure! They strike for perfection and grace. They believe in self-help, rather to depend help from other.

These performers, some of them are blind, crippled, semi-retarded, deaf, etc. But they live with dignity, pride and self confidence. Look back to our own surrounding, we are all born perfect, but there are many of us who lives like a sucker, who behave like an animal, who looks like a wolf wearing sheep skin. What is the matter with these people! If we compare these honourable disables with them, we really feel very shameful of these scumbags and garbages.

There are people who face hurdles in life, and will just turn around and do not face it. They set goals, but never reached. They make plans but never realised. Because they give up easily. They do not believe they could do it. They like to find short cuts. They want instant success. They must have forgotten a phase: NO PAIN, NO GAIN. At the end of the road, these people most properly will be pieces of drift wood, just flow through the stream of time and fade away without a trace!

I salute the performers in that DVD's cultural show. They given us strength to look forward when things are not to our desires. They demonstrated what will could make a person different from others. They are the real heroes in life!

Time

When I was young, time is nothing to me. I had waste lots of them for nothing. Youth is just like a splash of water. Suddenly, it vaporised, and vanished.

Today, youth is just like yesterday's event, it is so near and yet it is really far. Suddenly realise that time is ticking away, second by second. Very often hearing friends passing away one by one. My favourite actors gone, my favourite hangouts disappeared, my admired nation leader vanished. In the middle of the night, very often, I ask myself: When will be your turn?

Youngster do not realise this thing called 'Time' is a horrible thing. It just walk pass you and leave you no pain. Great leaders always say that we must live a meaningful life. How many of us, when we were having our last breath, would say to ourself: I really had my meaningful life in this world! Today, I see lots of young people addicted to games, drugs, and other trendy hobbies. Do they really think about meaning of life? Or their objectives in life? I could not answer on their behalf. But I do know, many time they are just letting time passing through their fingers and grap nothing for themselves. Sad? Maybe not. They may have lots of reasons to tell you they know what is good to themselves.

I just wonder, will these people have the same answer when they blow out their last breath, and look back on what they had done in the past?

For me, the clock's clicking is a daily threat. It keep on reminding me, time is running out of me. If I need to do something meaningful to myself, I better do it soon. Otherwise, it could be too late; and regret won't help.

有感

谢清 诗

春衫颓了秋寒，
清月照见发斑。
此生恩情难分，
流水飞花遗憾。

Peaceful life style

It was for a long time, that I have not been enjoying rural life. When I was young, I was employed as a farm teacher. I was then sent to Sembawang Farm School in Singapore for 2 years farm training. The two years staying in Farm School were paradise to me, as I was brought up in the city. I had chances to contact with all sorts of farm animals, such as foul, pigs, goats, fresh and marine fishes; as well as all kinds of horticultural plants.

My days at that time were full of colours, exitements, and gained new experience. I learnt to plant, to do animal husbandry, to experience fish farming, etc. The training given me a deeper understanding towards respecting life in all forms. I had witnessed how the cow tears when she walk into the slaughter house; how those pigs scream for their life, when they were chased into the gas chamber for slaughtering. I felt painful on those secenes and believe human beings are very cruel to these creatures.

Thereafter for thirty odd years, I was drowned in the hectic city life. Day in and day out, I struggled to survive in the mad mad world. Hardly I have time to sit down and reflect on what I am doing.

Only until recently, finally I was given a chance to handle my own life. I choose to take my time enjoy My Life. I travelled 350km away from home, and stay in a remote little town, name Raub in Pahang, one of the state in Malaysia.

I started to enjoy my beloved rural life again. Life here is so enjoyable, everyone here knows each other. The houses always with open doors to welcome guests. The mornings are filled with all sorts of birds' chirping. Morning mist like weil covering the whole place with a misty pale colour. Air is fresh as ever. Nearby, there are rubber plantation, durian farm, etc. Time flows slowly in here. My blood pressure drops to the lowest in my records. I stroll the earthy paths with greatest joy in my heart.

The world is so beautiful!

Lunar New Year

Every year at this period of time, his mood would go slightly down.

Human beings are strange creatures. Why must we create the concept of TIME? With this concept, we classify people: Young; Old; and Aged. With this concept, people who are sensitive and strong in self-awareness, would sense the time frame for himself or herself in this world is getting shorter and shorter. Do animals feels the same? Do you think the dog at your house really think about how long would he stay in this world after today?

As age grows, one feels he is getting older. At the early stage, this person may feel he is growing, maturing and have adulthood. But once he crossed over the age of 40, he would start feeling his life is sliding down the slope and a slow speed. When he is in his 50s, he would feel he gliding at a higher speed on the slope towards the end of his journey!

When days are limited, he would start to think about the meaning of existance of himself. He will start to reflect on what he had done in the past. He would examine and evaluate what he has achieved in the past too. On his report book, he would realise there are so many things that he had achieved are meaningless to LIFE itself! He starts to ponder on his thoughts to find out what is value to achieve from today to the day he stops breathing.

He looks around and see people fighting for names and frame. He would smile and walk away. There is a madding crowd out there. He becomes a loner, a misfit in the environment.

Every Lunar New Year period, he listens to the New Year Songs over and over again; he visits the goodies stores as years before, he realises his visits are getting numbered too.

He understands he is walking a step nearer to the other end, he likes it or not.

Rainbow



When we were young, we use to have our own rainbow inside our mind. We hope, one day, we will reach our rainbow! With this concept of rainbow, some of us really work towards it. It also have a driving force for us to pursue our goals in life.

As for our visually disabled singer, Kelvin Tan Wei Lian; he openly said one of his rainbows is to cut his own records. He participated in the Superstar contest without any intention, he just wants to try some different. But as he proceeds step by step towards his finals; he realized that he could be someone who will achieve the first title in Singapore. He works hard for it. Finally, he did it! There were public said that he won, due to people have given him the emotional "sympathy" votes.

But as time goes by, his first debut album was out, and in less than three days, his record achieved Gold Record! What does this prove? It only can prove that if someone is determined to achieve his goal in life, provided with the right strategy and opportunity, he should achieve it!

Is rainbow so far away? No! Not true. The rainbow is always in our mind, provided we want to take it seriously or not. There are many people who sees a rainbow at the spur of time, and later he would take it as a vision from the dream. His rainbow would fade fast. At the end of his life, he may achieve nothing. What a waste for such human being!

Is there absolute in our life?

This question always bug on my mind, since I have my logical thinking skill. What is absolute? One hundred percent right, you mean? Who has the correct judgment? Who has seen the perfect scenario?

We always hear our seniors, leaders, etc keep telling us what is totally right and what is totally wrong. The pictures they have painted; are they really absolute right? Who judges it?

If the world really have such things call absolute; then we should not see people fighting each other with so many things! We should see the absolute peace among mankind. Right?

The main difference in between Human and Animal is Human can think and have thoughts. This also brings in another problem: We think too much, and finally we tie our self with all kinds of concepts and ideas. Conflicts start from here!

For years, many lives were vanished meaninglessly due to people insisting their way of thinking is right or absolute! We are so smart that we fall into our own trap without realizing it.

absolute' is only in our state of mind. Really existing? I doubt so.

Targeting your future

Today, I talked to one of my very young friends who is an China national. I asked her what does she see herself in years to come. She shyly told me that she wanted to be a designer. But she added that her parents definitely would oppose to her view.

Two things came into my mind at that moment. What she said had happened to me. I totally understand her feeling. At the age of 16, when I told my mum I wanted to be an artist; I was scolded for the whole afternoon by her. My mum tried her best to brainwash me not to be an artist but in other professionals. She point was as an artist, you won't have a good life!

My young friend gave me that sorrowful look, after she said the parent will not be supportive on her view. I consoled her and share my experience with her. I encouraged her to set her target clear, and be brave to work towards it. I told her that she should understand her own abilities and her own choice. Once decided, she should work towards it, and never look back.

In these days, people are mostly live in their comfort zone. They tend not to take any risks, especially for parents to their kids! They have forgotten when they were young, they have dreams too. But now, they try to stop their kids to dream!

Is life only meant for monetary returns???

We should really think about it.

Touched

Recently watched Project Superstar, and I was touched by Kelvin's voice in his singing. Every time he sings on TV screen, very often, my eyes well with tears. Not because I am a soft-hearted person, but I think it is he full heartedly singing and his feeling that injected into his songs that move me.

There were many discussions and criticisms on the press as well as on radio, for question him as a visually disabled, the suitability to a Superstar. I did not bother about all this. To me, he is a stranger to me, up till today, I have not met him nor do I have the intention to know him personally. But inside me, he is really great. For everything I listen to his songs again, I am still moved as if the first time I heard him.

I started to think about his young life, and able to imagine how he had struggled through darkness and formed up his own world of our sighted reality. He openly mentioned that he accept his condition, and bravely face his life with pride. For this, I salute him with my highest respect.

Life is all about dignity, about pride, about dreams, about passion, about love, about....

Kelvin Tan we Lian has all these with him. One of his dream is to have his own concert, he had it on 1st September 2005. He would like to have his own album, he has it too. All his achievement are related to his focused strategy, his determination and his persistence. These days, how many of us still process these qualities? He is only 24! He really set a very good example for our youngsters to look up to.

Kelvin we Lian is not only a visually disabled singer, he is also a unique Singapore moral icon!

Flexibility is the survival skill in modern life. There are lots of people who take rules and regulations as their bible. To them, life is as simple as ABC, as long as you follow the rules and regulations imposed on them.

People like this would be very unhappy most of the time, as the world is changing so rapidly. We see social structure changes, we see moral standard changes, we see relationships change often. If we stick to fix rules or regulations, our mind would be fixed. Then the outcome would be most undesirable. Isn't it?